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since a couple of you asked for my social media: add me on steam:

Instagram: itsyaboyrileyonyx hotline numbers:

USA the Trevor project- suicide hotline for gay and lesbian youth and those questioning 1-866-4-U-TREVOR (1-866-488-7386) text TREVOR to 1-202-304-1200

Trans hotline free helpline for trans people staffed by trans people 1-877-565-8860

Gay and lesbian national hotline nationwide hotline for gay, lesbian, bisexual and transgender youth. completely confidential. 1-888-THE-GLNH (1-888-843-4564)

GLBT national youth talkline peer-counseling, factual information and local resources for cities and towns across the US. 1-800-246-PRIDE (1-800-246-7743)


The Beaumont society national 24hr information line for the trans community 01582-412220

The Beaumont trust helpline for transgender, transvestites and their partners 07000-287878

London gay and lesbian switchboard provides confidential, non-judgmental support 0300-330-0630

LGBT helpline Scotland provides information and emotional support for LGBT and their families, friends and supporters across Scotland 0300-123-2523


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Listening and information hotline for LGBT individuals, their family and friends


Dublin Lesbian line lesbian helpline in Dublin 018729911

For those of you wondering, here's the poem I wrote and used in the video, I made a few slight changes when reciting it because I was going by memory not reading it, so here it is:

When I was five All my Barbies were married to girls. I wanted to grow up To be just like Barbie. I wanted a beautiful wife To come home to And be with for the rest of my life. When I was five I knew I was attracted to girls, I knew i wasn't normal.

When I was eight, I sat on the sidelines Watching the boys play soccer,

Begging to be asked to join.

I wanted to be like them. Tomboy, they had called me, But I wanted to be more than that.

When I was twelve I asked for top surgery, I asked to remove my boobs. You made me feel like a freak, 'You're not a boy' you would say, 'You would have been born a boy if God wanted you that way'

When I was sixteen I avoided every mirror, The girl that stared back at me, I knew I wasn't her. I hated what I saw, I hated my body, It made me so uncomfortable, It made me sick And I knew I wanted to change it.

And now, at nineteen I have something I want to say. This body, This body of mine, I want it to go away. Mom, dad, I need you to listen, You won't like the truth, This I know, Mom, dad, I want to be your son. Amanda is what you call me, Amanda is who you know, But that isn't who I am. Mom, dad, Can I be known As your son, Riley?

This has been Riley L. Onyx (aw-nyx)

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